It's almost 1230 am. I can't bring myself to go to sleep. But I'm just sitting here on the couch in our dark room, thinking. I'm so thankful that Christ saved me. I'm a born again believer in Christ. But I still struggle.
Christians should be open about their struggles to other believers, to get help and also realize that others go through it as well. I struggle with lust issues. As do most guys probably. But I really do, and it's difficult, especially on a large campus with many women walking around. I'm often forced to stare at the ground or off into the distance to keep myself from looking.
Tonight, me and my roommates watched John Piper's video about making war. We don't go to hell because of Satan, we go to hell because of OUR sin. We are the ones that sin, its in our nature. I need to take my mind captive for the glory of Christ, and make war on my flesh and sin. Satan can tempt, but he doesn't have nearly the kind of power that our flesh has. And its scary.
I will admit that I'm scared to death of getting engaged and getting married. Like I really really want to find the right woman to spend the rest of my life with, but I'm scared as anything. I'm afraid that my mind will give in to lust and I might end up cheating on my wife, whether it be actual, or even in my head. It's the single thing that is scaring the life out of me when it comes to relationships and eventual marriage.
But I'm desperately trying to keep my mind clean and make war on my sinful nature. We all struggle, but do we do something about it?
